7

His lips were rock-hard against mine, making it hard for me to breathe. One of his hands was cupped around the back of my neck and the other started moving down my body from my back, to my thigh, to my knee, where he stopped and wrapped it around his waist. Oh no,no,no,no,no, NO! This can't be happening! I don't want to do this now! I can't! I pulled his face from mine, but that still didn't stop him. He moved down to my neck, kissing every inch of it. It not only made it hard for me to breathe, but even harder for me to even speak, but I knew I had to say something.
"J-Ja-JACOB! PLEASE, STOP!"
"What? I thought that maybe--"
"I can't! It's just... not right. As much as I want to, I just can't."
"I'm so sorry, Nessie," he apologized, letting out a huge sigh.
"No, it's okay." I took his face and cradled it in my hands, looking into his lovely eyes. "Just... promise me that you'll wait until after we're married. Please?"
"Okay. I promise. But I'll only promise you this if... you promise not to stop me. Especially since it's going to be on our honeymoon."
"I promise. And trust me, I don't think either one of us would really want to stop."
"True." I gave him a kiss, though this time neither one of us wanted to stop, but we also didn't want to go too far. So I tried to get the best of what I had at the moment, as he whispered in my ear, "I love you, my beautiful Renesmee." And that's when I knew I would always find a happy place with Jacob... my gorgeous Jacob.
It was the next morning that I got a call from Jacob, telling me that Alice was dragging him to Port Angeles to get a tux. That left me to have the day with Billy, Jacob's cousins, Seth, and Leah. I was actually excited to be spending the day with my new family and friends, especially Leah. I had a strong feeling about what had happened yesterday, but I really wanted to make sure. So I had the day planned so we could have a sisterly-talk with one another. I drove to Jacob's house where everyone was waiting. When I got inside, everyone was gathered in the living room watching the Red Sox game, all except Leah. I walked in with a huge smile on my face to greet everyone.
"Hey guys!"
"Hey Nessie!" they all greeted. They all went back to the game on the screen while I grabbed Seth by the elbow, off the couch.
"Seth, where's Leah?" He looked back, as if he didn't want anyone to here what he was saying, though both knew that everyone else could hear.
"Um... she asked me not tell you. Though you can tell there's something wrong with that last sentence, since she asked me and didn't tell me."
"Where is she?"
"She stayed home, but she wouldn't tell me why, she just told me to leave without her."
"Is your mom home?"
"No, she went to Charlie's for lunch, why?"
"Oh, no real reason." I didn't want her mom to be there because I didn't want her to feel awkward when I tried talking to her. "Thanks, Seth. I'll see you later."
"Bye, Ness. Good luck."
"Bye."
I got to the Clearwater's house and knocked on the door, hopefully she would answer it. Leah opened the door, a bit surprised to see me. She didn't look so good, like she just got out of bed. Her hair was tangled in some places, she was still in her pajamas, and a few bags under her eyes.
"Hey, Leah."
"Hey. Um... I'm guessing my brother told you I wa stiil here?"
"Yeah. Can I come in?"
"Sure." I followed her to her room. She sat down, quietly, on her bed as I followed and sat next to her. She pulled her knees up to her chest.
"So... I'm not going to beat around the bush, Leah. But, I saw what happened yesterday and--"
"Look, nothing happened, alright?"
"Leah. Now we both know that's not true." I let out a big sigh before I spoke again. "I know... I know you like Jessie."
"I don't know what you're talking about."
"Look, if you don't talk to me, then I'll go talk to Jessie. I'm pretty sure I can get something out of h--"
"No!" Leah looked away, taking her surprised expression back to what it was and sighed.
"Please. Just talk to me."
"Okay. Maybe, by some strange miracle, I actually like a guy. So what? It's not like he likes me."
"What are you talking about? I saw the way he looked at you, and I know he likes you."
"You don't understand. When I saw Jessie yesterday, so many things happened inside me all at once, so many emotions and feelings. Love, anger, excitement, frustration, happiness, anxiety... in other words , I didn't know, and I still don't know, if Jessie likes me for me or just because we imprinted on each other. And if just is imprinting, then I feel like it might not be true love."
That's when I thought for a moment, though I knew it was a littile silly, but it just got me thinking. Do I love Jacob for who he is, or do I just love him because of an imprint? I wasn't even sure anymore. I loved him, but for for what reason? For the right reason? I stopped thinking about that in oreder to get back to Leah.
"Well, let me ask you something Leah, what does your heart tell you? Are you in love with him, or is only your mind and body?"
"I really like him, Nessie. I know I imprinted, but i just have this feeling that that's not why I like him."
"Well, then, get dressed. We've cot to get to Jacob's house before evryone leaves."
"I don't know."
"Oh, come on. If you wait too long, it may be to late,and I don't want my friend missing out on her first shot at love."
"Okay. I'll get dressed," she said getting up from the bed to leave the room. "Hey, Nessie? Thanks."
"No problem. What are friends for?"
"You're a really great friend."
We got to the house, and we could hear everyone was still inside. We entered the house and Leah and I were both greeted by everyone's smiles lit upon their faces. I saw Leah and Jessie lock gazes once again.
"Go," I whispered, "Go ask him."
"Alright, alright. But, do you mind clearing the room for me?"
"Sure, no problem." I changed my attention tothe other guys."Hey! Guys, Leah wants to have a little talk with Jessie, do you guy mind, uh..."
"Oh! Yeah, sure!" It was Billy who answered. "Come on, lets go to the other room to watch the rest of the game."
"Okay!" they all said simotaniously. The others left the room, and I stayed long enough to make sure that Leah and Jessie were left alone, and long enough for me to see Leah mouth, thanks to me.I returned the favor by smiling and walking to the other room with the guys.
It had only been about twenty minutes since we left the living room. I wondered if Jessie and Leah had left, or if they were now just watching something together. The game had finished, the Red Sox losing six to eight, and we all started walking back to the living room. I guess they did leave, for i didn't here the television on or anyting. But I was proven wrong when I saw it. Jessie and Leah, lips to lips, nose to nose, kissing in the living room. I stared in shock, but excitement while the others howled in laughter at what was in front of us. Both of them looked up to see that we had come back from watching the game, both of them blushing a deep, bright red. I couldn't help but think of Jacob. Of course, that got me back to thinking about what Leah had said to me earlier.
Now... I was a bit afraid.