I couldn’t exactly describe how I was feeling. I felt a jolt of an electric current go through my body. I wasn’t sure if I should be excited, anxious, or afraid. Maybe I was some how feeling all that at the exact same time. I didn’t know what to do. I saw my blood spread along the ground, vampires fighting to kill me or keep me alive, and werewolves by their side. But, for the moment, I seemed to only be able to focus on one thing. One person. I looked at that special person, the one I loved, not sure if he, or any of us would make it. Maybe… this was the end.
Chapter 1-Feelings:
I felt the cool breeze run past me, filling my nose with the sweet-smelling aroma of the ocean, blowing my reddish brown curls across my face. The sun had come out today, a not-so-often experience for the little, and rainy town of Forks. I saw the bright colors of orange, red and pink fill the sky. I did my beat to soak it all in as much as I could, seeing as this could be the only beautiful sunrise I would see in a normal person’s life time.
I always came down to La Push beach early in the morning, mostly on weekends, to get a fresh and lovely start on my day. I would always come to my favorite spot, although my mother did tell me she almost died here, I like it. Besides, she was human when that happened, and although I am half human, but I wasn’t afraid of falling off a cliff and dieing since I jump from it all the time.
I took off my mini skirt and my shirt, wearing a brand new, red polka dot bikini, that, of course, Alice bought for me just last week. I took in one huge breath and dove right into the cool, soothing ocean water. I swam for what seemed like hours to me, although it was probably only a few minutes. I finally came to the surface to breathe. As soon as I came up, I saw my best friend Jacob Black. No one knew that I came to the beach every morning except Jacob, and maybe my father since he’s able to read my mind. I would always come early and he would come later on after he finally woke up.
“Hey Jacob!” I smiled and waved to him, very happy and excited to see him. Jacob had always been my best friend. Some of my other friends had asked me if we had gone out, but I would always say, “No! It’s not like that! He’s one of my best friends, and old family friend I’ve known ever since I was born.” But, of course, my friends would give me this look as if to say, Yea right. Are you kidding me! You so like him, and you know it. Besides that, there was never anything awkward between the two of us.
“Hey Nessie! I’m coming in!” He took off his shirt, leaving him with only sweat pants. He began running at full speed up a giant bolder and, without stopping, jumped into the water, splashing me strait in the face.
We started playing in the water like two kids playing in the kiddy pool, splash each other in the face and running along the shore. The game soon ended when Jake caught me by the waist, picked me up and put me on his shoulder, making burst into laughter.
“Jake! Put me down!”
“No way!”
He began laughing with me as he ran me all the way up the giant cliff. He laid me down onto the soft rock’s grass and fell right next to me. We continued laughing a little while longer, looking up to the sky. I looked past him into the distance, to see that the beautiful sun had disappeared behind the clouds. Then I looked at his face, only to see him smiling back at me with his perfect smile, his beautiful eyes, and his perfect features staring back at me…
Whoa! What the heck? I couldn’t even begin to describe what I was feeling. It was a sudden, unexpected thing. I didn’t even know what it was. It felt like a shock that just ran through my entire body, but not to hurt or kill me, but to make me feel good. It was the strangest thing that I couldn’t think of a single word for it. I was only 8 for God’s sake! Although I’m physically 16 and Carlisle says that I learn very fast.
“Hey,” Jake suddenly said. I almost jumped at the sound of his voice after having strange thoughts in my mind.
“Yea?”
“Do you wanna come to a bonfire with me and the other werewolves tonight? It will be tons of fun! Lots of food, stories, and everything! What do you say?”
“Sure! That sounds cool.”
“Great! I’ll go tell the guys! See you tonight Nessie!” He got up and pulled on his shirt in one quick movement. As he ran up the beach to his motorcycle, I yelled back at him, “Bye Jake! See you later!”
With a huge, long sigh, I got up and put on my clothes and began to run home.
On the way home, I began thinking to myself about earlier. What could that have been about? I mean I’ve never had that feeling before. I still couldn’t describe it; it was too weird for me to even think about it anymore. Okay. Just forget about it, don’t worry about it anymore. Besides getting closer to the house doesn’t help since dad’s home and he can hear everything I’m thinking.
I cleared my thoughts as I entered into the house. My mom was on the couch, reading a thick book, and dad was sitting next to her, playing with a strand of her hair and running his fingers through her hair.
“Hey Nessie,” dad said. “Where have you been?!”
“Down at the beach. Just hanging out with Jake.”
“Oh.”
“Hey is it okay if I go to a bonfire tonight with Jake and all the other werewolves?”
“Yea, that’s fine.”
“Really?!” I asked a little surprised.
This time my mom answered, “Of course. Go have some fun!”
I ran over to them and gave them both a kiss on the cheek. “Thanks mom! Thanks dad! I won’t stay out too late. I’ll be back before midnight,” I said as I ran happily to my room.
***
I rushed to get ready, for I lost track of the time. I quickly pulled on another bikini, hopefully dad wouldn’t really mind, a pair of old ripped jeans, and a camisole. That’s when I heard the sound of Jakes motorcycle pull up in front of the house. I ran out of my room, to my mom and dad to give them both a quick peck on the cheek, and to the front door as my mom yelled to me, “Bye baby! Have a good time!”
“I will! Bye!”
I ran out, closing the door behind me, going strait to where Jacob was. He embraced me in a tight hug, like he always did, even like mom whenever he came for a visit. It felt normal. No weird feelings came over me like before, just a normal, not-awkward-at-all friendly hug. He released me from his grasp, getting back onto the bike. I got on, put my arms around his waist and we headed down to the beach.
When we go there, Sam had already started the bonfire. It had many colors and shades of orange, red and pink, like the beautiful sunrise from early this morning. I had never been to any of the bonfires before. They only had these once or twice a year for the pack and every time they would invite me I would always get stuck with homework, so I was very excited about going to my first.
We walked down to the group and sat down in the sand. Of course, Jake sat next me on my right side, while Leah was on my left. Leah and I had gotten off to a very rough start in our relationship, but, as time passes, people leave the past behind them. We were now really great friends and had spent a lot of time together in the past couple of years, though Jake and her brother Seth would make bad jokes about it sometimes, we would always do our best to ignore it.
The whole night we ate and told stories, ran around the beach and went for a swim sometimes, and even did a funny game of “Truth or Dare?”, It was tons of fun. I always chose truth because I was always afraid of what they wanted me to do like the things they were making others do. Leah was dared to kiss Sam. She gave him a small peck on the lips, and made Emily’s face turn a bright shade of red. Everyone started laughing when they both gave a look on their face as if they tasted something bad. Unfortunately the party didn't last. It was coming to an end because everyone was getting tired.
I must have fallen asleep because I opened my eyes to see that everyone had left, except for me and Jake, and that the fire had reduced down to a small bluish flame.
“What time is it? How long have I been asleep?” I asked.
“It’s almost midnight. You’ve only been sleeping for about an hour.”
“What?! I promised mom and dad that I’d be home before midnight!”
“Nessie, chill out! I called Edward and Bella and they told me to take you home after you wake up.”
“Oh. Well why didn’t you just carry me home?”
“Mostly… for your parents sake to have some more ‘alone time.’ Ugh.”
“Oh. Well I guess I should head on home,” I said, lifting up my head from his shoulder.
I then looked up at his face, seeing, once again, his brilliantly warm eyes staring right back at me. The faint color of blue from what was left of the fire complimented his perfect features, only to make that feeling creep back inside of me, and I couldn’t seem to deny it.
Oh no, I thought. It’s happening again! That strange feeling is back! What’s happening? Why do I feel like this? I couldn’t figure it out. It was definitely something I had never experienced before and something, for some reason, that I couldn’t let go of. The stares continued for a long moment of complete silence.
Then…
It happened so fast. I wasn’t sure what was going through either one of our minds at the time. All I knew was that our faces were moving closer together inch by inch. I felt the warmth of his as I inhaled the sweet aroma as much as I could. Our noses, our cheeks and our lips brushed across one another, finally enclosing the space between us, pressing our lips together. My lips shaped their way around his as his tongue traced around to the inside of my mouth. I couldn’t bear anymore after that, so I broke away from him. I fell completely silent, not sure what to say to him, and ran at full sped back home. Tears silently began falling down my cheeks, not being able to control the many emotions that broke through to me.
I was happy, afraid, excited, anxious, exuberant, and yet completely terrified all at the same time. I knew what I was feeling. I knew what this strange feeling was called. I was… in love.
What?! No! I can’t be in love with Jacob, my best friend, not like that! I kept trying to convince myself that it wasn’t true, it wasn’t real, but no matter how hard I tried, I could not erase it. It was too real and I was in too deep. A part of me want to go back and tell him how I truly felt about him, but the other was telling me to keep running home, and, apparently, my body was agreeing with part that went back home. I never hesitated or stopped, although I really wanted to, I just continued my way home. I wasn’t sure what to do, or what to think anymore.
I finally arrived at the cottage and stepped inside. It was quiet and still. Was no one home?
“Mom? Dad?” No response.
Then, a small note on the kitchen counter, marked with my name on the front, caught my eye. Nessie, it read.
Your mother and I left to go for a short hunting trip. We’ll be back before you awake. We love you.
I went to my room, closed my door and instantly plopped down onto my bed. My mind began to spin faster and faster as lay there dazed, looking at nothing but the ceiling above me. I waited, for many hours, until I drifted into unconsciousness.
***
The dim light was shone through my window waking me early that morning. My mother was sitting on the edge of my bed with what seemed to be a cup of fresh coffee. Uh oh. Mom never gets me coffee, without my asking, unless she wants to have a serious talk. But what could she possibly want to talk to me about? If it was about what happened last night, how could she possibly know? Then, the sound of my father’s laughter broke out. He was leaning casually against my door’s frame, smiling. What all do you know dad? He didn’t say a word; he just closed the door behind him as he left the room. Yeah, that’s what I thought.
“Nessie?”
“Yes, mom?”
“I think we need to have a little talk.”
Chapter 1-Feelings:
I felt the cool breeze run past me, filling my nose with the sweet-smelling aroma of the ocean, blowing my reddish brown curls across my face. The sun had come out today, a not-so-often experience for the little, and rainy town of Forks. I saw the bright colors of orange, red and pink fill the sky. I did my beat to soak it all in as much as I could, seeing as this could be the only beautiful sunrise I would see in a normal person’s life time.
I always came down to La Push beach early in the morning, mostly on weekends, to get a fresh and lovely start on my day. I would always come to my favorite spot, although my mother did tell me she almost died here, I like it. Besides, she was human when that happened, and although I am half human, but I wasn’t afraid of falling off a cliff and dieing since I jump from it all the time.
I took off my mini skirt and my shirt, wearing a brand new, red polka dot bikini, that, of course, Alice bought for me just last week. I took in one huge breath and dove right into the cool, soothing ocean water. I swam for what seemed like hours to me, although it was probably only a few minutes. I finally came to the surface to breathe. As soon as I came up, I saw my best friend Jacob Black. No one knew that I came to the beach every morning except Jacob, and maybe my father since he’s able to read my mind. I would always come early and he would come later on after he finally woke up.
“Hey Jacob!” I smiled and waved to him, very happy and excited to see him. Jacob had always been my best friend. Some of my other friends had asked me if we had gone out, but I would always say, “No! It’s not like that! He’s one of my best friends, and old family friend I’ve known ever since I was born.” But, of course, my friends would give me this look as if to say, Yea right. Are you kidding me! You so like him, and you know it. Besides that, there was never anything awkward between the two of us.
“Hey Nessie! I’m coming in!” He took off his shirt, leaving him with only sweat pants. He began running at full speed up a giant bolder and, without stopping, jumped into the water, splashing me strait in the face.
We started playing in the water like two kids playing in the kiddy pool, splash each other in the face and running along the shore. The game soon ended when Jake caught me by the waist, picked me up and put me on his shoulder, making burst into laughter.
“Jake! Put me down!”
“No way!”
He began laughing with me as he ran me all the way up the giant cliff. He laid me down onto the soft rock’s grass and fell right next to me. We continued laughing a little while longer, looking up to the sky. I looked past him into the distance, to see that the beautiful sun had disappeared behind the clouds. Then I looked at his face, only to see him smiling back at me with his perfect smile, his beautiful eyes, and his perfect features staring back at me…
Whoa! What the heck? I couldn’t even begin to describe what I was feeling. It was a sudden, unexpected thing. I didn’t even know what it was. It felt like a shock that just ran through my entire body, but not to hurt or kill me, but to make me feel good. It was the strangest thing that I couldn’t think of a single word for it. I was only 8 for God’s sake! Although I’m physically 16 and Carlisle says that I learn very fast.
“Hey,” Jake suddenly said. I almost jumped at the sound of his voice after having strange thoughts in my mind.
“Yea?”
“Do you wanna come to a bonfire with me and the other werewolves tonight? It will be tons of fun! Lots of food, stories, and everything! What do you say?”
“Sure! That sounds cool.”
“Great! I’ll go tell the guys! See you tonight Nessie!” He got up and pulled on his shirt in one quick movement. As he ran up the beach to his motorcycle, I yelled back at him, “Bye Jake! See you later!”
With a huge, long sigh, I got up and put on my clothes and began to run home.
On the way home, I began thinking to myself about earlier. What could that have been about? I mean I’ve never had that feeling before. I still couldn’t describe it; it was too weird for me to even think about it anymore. Okay. Just forget about it, don’t worry about it anymore. Besides getting closer to the house doesn’t help since dad’s home and he can hear everything I’m thinking.
I cleared my thoughts as I entered into the house. My mom was on the couch, reading a thick book, and dad was sitting next to her, playing with a strand of her hair and running his fingers through her hair.
“Hey Nessie,” dad said. “Where have you been?!”
“Down at the beach. Just hanging out with Jake.”
“Oh.”
“Hey is it okay if I go to a bonfire tonight with Jake and all the other werewolves?”
“Yea, that’s fine.”
“Really?!” I asked a little surprised.
This time my mom answered, “Of course. Go have some fun!”
I ran over to them and gave them both a kiss on the cheek. “Thanks mom! Thanks dad! I won’t stay out too late. I’ll be back before midnight,” I said as I ran happily to my room.
***
I rushed to get ready, for I lost track of the time. I quickly pulled on another bikini, hopefully dad wouldn’t really mind, a pair of old ripped jeans, and a camisole. That’s when I heard the sound of Jakes motorcycle pull up in front of the house. I ran out of my room, to my mom and dad to give them both a quick peck on the cheek, and to the front door as my mom yelled to me, “Bye baby! Have a good time!”
“I will! Bye!”
I ran out, closing the door behind me, going strait to where Jacob was. He embraced me in a tight hug, like he always did, even like mom whenever he came for a visit. It felt normal. No weird feelings came over me like before, just a normal, not-awkward-at-all friendly hug. He released me from his grasp, getting back onto the bike. I got on, put my arms around his waist and we headed down to the beach.
When we go there, Sam had already started the bonfire. It had many colors and shades of orange, red and pink, like the beautiful sunrise from early this morning. I had never been to any of the bonfires before. They only had these once or twice a year for the pack and every time they would invite me I would always get stuck with homework, so I was very excited about going to my first.
We walked down to the group and sat down in the sand. Of course, Jake sat next me on my right side, while Leah was on my left. Leah and I had gotten off to a very rough start in our relationship, but, as time passes, people leave the past behind them. We were now really great friends and had spent a lot of time together in the past couple of years, though Jake and her brother Seth would make bad jokes about it sometimes, we would always do our best to ignore it.
The whole night we ate and told stories, ran around the beach and went for a swim sometimes, and even did a funny game of “Truth or Dare?”, It was tons of fun. I always chose truth because I was always afraid of what they wanted me to do like the things they were making others do. Leah was dared to kiss Sam. She gave him a small peck on the lips, and made Emily’s face turn a bright shade of red. Everyone started laughing when they both gave a look on their face as if they tasted something bad. Unfortunately the party didn't last. It was coming to an end because everyone was getting tired.
I must have fallen asleep because I opened my eyes to see that everyone had left, except for me and Jake, and that the fire had reduced down to a small bluish flame.
“What time is it? How long have I been asleep?” I asked.
“It’s almost midnight. You’ve only been sleeping for about an hour.”
“What?! I promised mom and dad that I’d be home before midnight!”
“Nessie, chill out! I called Edward and Bella and they told me to take you home after you wake up.”
“Oh. Well why didn’t you just carry me home?”
“Mostly… for your parents sake to have some more ‘alone time.’ Ugh.”
“Oh. Well I guess I should head on home,” I said, lifting up my head from his shoulder.
I then looked up at his face, seeing, once again, his brilliantly warm eyes staring right back at me. The faint color of blue from what was left of the fire complimented his perfect features, only to make that feeling creep back inside of me, and I couldn’t seem to deny it.
Oh no, I thought. It’s happening again! That strange feeling is back! What’s happening? Why do I feel like this? I couldn’t figure it out. It was definitely something I had never experienced before and something, for some reason, that I couldn’t let go of. The stares continued for a long moment of complete silence.
Then…
It happened so fast. I wasn’t sure what was going through either one of our minds at the time. All I knew was that our faces were moving closer together inch by inch. I felt the warmth of his as I inhaled the sweet aroma as much as I could. Our noses, our cheeks and our lips brushed across one another, finally enclosing the space between us, pressing our lips together. My lips shaped their way around his as his tongue traced around to the inside of my mouth. I couldn’t bear anymore after that, so I broke away from him. I fell completely silent, not sure what to say to him, and ran at full sped back home. Tears silently began falling down my cheeks, not being able to control the many emotions that broke through to me.
I was happy, afraid, excited, anxious, exuberant, and yet completely terrified all at the same time. I knew what I was feeling. I knew what this strange feeling was called. I was… in love.
What?! No! I can’t be in love with Jacob, my best friend, not like that! I kept trying to convince myself that it wasn’t true, it wasn’t real, but no matter how hard I tried, I could not erase it. It was too real and I was in too deep. A part of me want to go back and tell him how I truly felt about him, but the other was telling me to keep running home, and, apparently, my body was agreeing with part that went back home. I never hesitated or stopped, although I really wanted to, I just continued my way home. I wasn’t sure what to do, or what to think anymore.
I finally arrived at the cottage and stepped inside. It was quiet and still. Was no one home?
“Mom? Dad?” No response.
Then, a small note on the kitchen counter, marked with my name on the front, caught my eye. Nessie, it read.
Your mother and I left to go for a short hunting trip. We’ll be back before you awake. We love you.
I went to my room, closed my door and instantly plopped down onto my bed. My mind began to spin faster and faster as lay there dazed, looking at nothing but the ceiling above me. I waited, for many hours, until I drifted into unconsciousness.
***
The dim light was shone through my window waking me early that morning. My mother was sitting on the edge of my bed with what seemed to be a cup of fresh coffee. Uh oh. Mom never gets me coffee, without my asking, unless she wants to have a serious talk. But what could she possibly want to talk to me about? If it was about what happened last night, how could she possibly know? Then, the sound of my father’s laughter broke out. He was leaning casually against my door’s frame, smiling. What all do you know dad? He didn’t say a word; he just closed the door behind him as he left the room. Yeah, that’s what I thought.
“Nessie?”
“Yes, mom?”
“I think we need to have a little talk.”
Ingen kommentarer:
Send en kommentar